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NOTE: THE FOLLOWING TEXT IS NOT MEANT TO BE GRAMMATICALLY CORRECT. THESE ARE MY SPEAKING NOTES FROM THE VIDEO ABOVE.
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So one of the guidelines is called “Satya”, which pretty much just means truthfulness. And sure, it means not telling little white lies, but it the scope of it is so much more encompassing than that. The truth can be scary as hell. As Deborah Adele says in her book, the Yamas and Niyamas, “Truth demands integrity to life and to our own self.” Now I don’t want to get into a whole discussion about what the truth is and why it’s so damn scary. Maybe next month I can do some scopes on the yamas and niyamas one by one.
So this yama, truthfulness, has taught me to be true to myself in so many ways. One of the ways is that I finally stopped lying to myself about what I thought was good for me in my life. I’ve always been a pretty free spirit of a person, but at the same time tried to colour within the lines of life and do what was “right” according to others. So I went to college, became an accounting technician and spent a good chunk of my career working for government departments, crippled by red tape, bureaucracy and lack of freedom of original thought and creativity. I was like a caterpillar stuck in a cocoon, my cubicle, waiting to bloom, but blooming time never came around. I was dying, continually lying to myself that I needed to stay for the money, for my son, for fear of what my family, friends, and loved ones would say i I left. It made me very depressed, angry, and left feeling flat. My creative spirit was dying every day I was there. The lies were so deep that I wasn’t even sure what the truth was any more.
One day I just had enough… I knew something had to happen. Thanks to a great friend, I had started taking yoga classes, and my love of learning led me to finding out about these other aspects of yoga. The more I learned, the more I became alive again, and knew things needed to change. My truth was starting to speak to me from the inside out. Was I going to keep doing this for the rest of my life, working for a pension, but probably dying young due to all the stress, or was I going to make some drastic changes? I knew, that ffor my son, I have to give him an example to follow. I kept preaching to him to follow his heart, but I wasn’t doing it myself.
Fast forward… yoga teacher training, health coach training, and all sorts of other training, and I was moving forward. I started teaching yoga, doing some health coaching, and I was still working at my govt job. It was time to make a decision, because I was working 40 hours a week at my day job and working just as many at my business. It was time to make that decision… do or die and I wasn’t ready to die, so I took the leap towards the truth I needed to live. Was it easy??? No!!! I was scared to death. But as I started talking to those closest to me, those people that I feared their reaction, they actually supported me with all their hearts.
I took the leap, and almost 1 year ago, I officially left my day job and became 100% self-employed. It’s beautiful, it’s more work than I’ve ever done in all my life, but I’m energized, full of life, and I continue to build on my truth every single day.
Sometimes we tell ourselves stories that aren’t true. We make up stories in our heads or we let our past experiences dictate our future. But once we draw back the curtains, expose the truth, it’s really not as scary as we thought it was. It actually gives us courage, even if it’s scary.
Another way that it has shown me to be true to myself is to be more confident in my values and beliefs. So for example… I might think that the law of attraction is real, and that manifesting is real, but a friend or someone close to me may think that it’s BS. In the past, I would probably cower and rethink my values or beliefs, but today, because I know my own truth, I don’t back down. It doesn’t mean I won’t listen to what others have to say or consider it, but it means that I won’t let others demean me or criticize my beliefs and values. I still love them if they think otherwise, but it’s important for them to respect my beliefs as much as I respect theirs. That said, if their value and belief systems are so off base from what mine are, I sometimes evaluate the validity of our relationship. We are what we surround ourselves with, so I choose to surround myself with as much positivity as possible. With people and things that help bring out my truth and encourage me to live my truth.
Alright… so that’s a bit of me and one way yoga has changed my life. Let’s take about 5 minutes or so to chat. What experiences have you had that have allowed you to speak your truth? Or…. what truth are you afraid of facing?